HAPPY BIRTHDAY EILEEN!!!!
oh well , went out with eileen , chin din , sam , yi wei , bk
as usual i was late.
super late!
was suppose to meet at 12 but i'm still sleeping ,
so meet them at bugis ,
reach there at 3 , went swensen , had ice-cream
eileen's treat. OH how sweet!
then went arcade , waited for jiayu and dearie to come ,
then walked around ,
sam bought something , yi wei bought something too!
after that took mrt to ps.
bought donuts for family. how sweet am i right?
then had dinner and went home.
hope that eileen enjoy her day . smile girl!

on the way back ,
for no reason suddenly thought of something , jy would know.
suddenly felt how foolish and stupid i am ,
but still i can't let go .
i tried and tried but i still can't .
though i tried to let go alittle but i'm feeling bad ,
it has been long since i'm back to this me again .
i'm sick and tired of this type of life.
it's tiring , very tiring.
i really don't want to think of all this ,
i'm tired of thinking ,
i dont wan to think ,
i'm scared of thinking .
you might say i'm only running away from it, i'm stupid .
but i really don't have the courage to face all this , i'm scared , really scared
i'm scared of falling into that trap , with total darkness , total silence ,
all i could hear is the sound of my crying .
i'm scare that i can't get out of it ,
i'm scared of being hurt again .
i'm scared of thinking cause i don't wanna be hurt again.
i'm scared of facing all this alone ,

all i could say is , i'm feeling terrible now .
i need sometime alone.