i'm back .
was suppose to go jambo for dinner later , but jiejie's having her exam tmr so cancel. then went yam cha for lunch . walk around bugis , bought a jean.

without fail , i kinda quarreled with my mum again . like AGAIN. i don't know is it that we have problem communicating or what. it's like every time without fail , i'll alway quarrel with her. she's kinda being unreasonable man!

like few days back , i asked her for opinion on something. she said anything , it's up to me . then when i told her my decision , she's like making hell lot of noise. it's like WTH ! you are the one who said that i'll make the decision cause i'm the one going there and yet you're also the one who said hell lots of thing . if she wans me to go to that place , just say it , what for must she go round and round.

tell me , when is the last time we actually sit down and have a proper dinner. like so freaking long can . she's alway working till late , jiejie always studying and working and dad will always be the only one at home with me .
i understand that you have lots of work to do , i understand that you're under lots of stress , so i din't said a single thing.

people have their family members with them during the week ends what about me ? not even sat & sun so don't even expect them to be at home during weekdays. it's kinda normal for me to not see my mum for more than 1week , when she's like not oversea but in Singapore.

she said that she's stress and ask me not to add on to her stress. but have she spare a tot for me? my result ! she has never been happy about my result . i tried my best but still she's alway not happy with it.

every week , i've got to go through the same thing , eat the same thing and endure the same painness , did i said anything ? no! i'm so afraid of that day that i cried to bed almost every night, did anyone ever know ? no! having to keep all this thing to myself is already so terrible and yet i still got friends who betrayed me , who lied to me , who make me so disappointed that i've given up on friendship . who can i talk to ? NO ONE! those painful feeling is already so terrible but still i have to act as if i'm ok , i'm strong in front of your . do your ever know that it's painful , it hurts and i'm tired . that's for home , what about in school . seeing those people who lied , who betrayed me makes me think of the past . but what can i say or do . nothing! all i can do is come home from school and cry . my eyes does hurt but what can i do . i could no longer hold on anymore. and this not the end , relationship , wo hui zhe yang dou shi ying wei ta! (san , mich will know what i mean)

now people ,
you understand why am i alway sleeping ? cause i don't wish to think of anything . i just wanna sleep all day.

and did i told your that i saw that person on the mrt again! ha!